i guess ppl become more wavered by nostalgia when january comes
the mark of a new yr, new challenges,
and most imptly a step closer to adulthood.
that notion doesn't really sound nice eh..

but oh well, life has to go on.

there's one particular reason why i'm blogging today
i've been distancing myself from ppl lately.
deep inside, i'd prefer to be given space alone
sounds lonely?
yeah it sure is, but i'm pretty cynical about having friends around

in any case, here's an update on my life
it's already my 2nd wk studying in SIM
not many ppl knows abt this, since i'm planning to quietly get my degree
short 2 yr business management course,
shld fly by quickly considering how time flew in ns

i've been a total ghost in sch
not attracting attention in class, zipping past corridors,
not wanting to bump into anyone familiar
so far, it's been quite successful i'd say
other than when i got spotted on my first day
but managed to cover that up by insisting that's my doppelganger
i'm quite good at misleading ppl eh?

well, so my purpose in blogging is to let my heart out
it's lonely not being able to tell anyone wad i'm doing
so the next best option is to talk to yourself
forever alone moment much?
nah.. i'm still the scheming bastard. =D

why am i trying so hard to hide the fact i'm schooling?
simple. social experiment.
i've always been cynical about making friends
i only befriend people who will benefit me in some way or another
usually it's someone who has potential to go far in life
or maybe it's just someone with a pretty face that is gd to have arnd
birds of the feather flock together,
which means i might just get acquainted to another pretty face through that person.
that's planning for the future.

so, if you are reading this,
and you don't happen to be me,
yes, i'm self-centered. i won't get close to ppl who i view as potential negative influence.
but let's face it, you only keep friends who you deem will be useful to you.

back to my concept,
friends will only weigh you down.
if you wanna go far, don't rely too much on others.
on a separate note, there's also this personal motto that i have

"if you wanna do something right, do it yourself"

someone told me once before
that i shld have more trust in people.
my reply was, yes, i trust people..
i trust that they cannot be trusted.
it's fine to leave the simple tasks to others
but for tasks that asks for splendor and perfection,
leave it to someone with a greater drive to make it happen
yourself.


for those of you who found this blog post
by accident or whatnot,
congrats.
and i don't need your pity.
cheers! =)

this is going to be a super random post after a long time..

someone told me that my blog is still fully functional
at first, i was kinda skeptical considering how my file host works
a few mths of inactivity and *poof*, gone.
that means the images in this blogskin will not appear
which renders the whole functionality of this blogskin useless.

was planning to keep it that way,
but it seems like somehow this place is still alive and kicking
maybe my blog does have a mind of its own.. wanting to survive..
and not swallowed by the advances of online social networking.
or not. i'm thinking too much.

so, today marks the day just prior to a landmark date
gonna collect my pink IC tmr
kinda sad leaving behind wad i have built for the past 2 yrs
all the reputation and expert knowledge..
oh well, life has to go on.

nxt step, finding a place to continue my studies.
yes, i haven't found a place yet.
VERY undecided.
overseas is like the best bet to a recognized and fast track to a degree
but considering all the financing issues, kinda hard.
which leaves me to local private institutions
nxt qn is, to stay in the sciences field, or not.

anyway, this blog will remain for as long as the internet is around.
at least i can look back onto how i spent my days as a teenager
living a carefree life and living it to the fullest.
as u grow older, age just simply catches on and u start to get less excited over the simple pleasures in life.

till nxt time, wyd out.

i'm gonna be super random and blog
quick update on life..
i'm now at the last few phases of my driving course @ kaki bukit camp
just passed my saf driving test last wk..
so that means i'll be trapped in sembawang camp within the nxt mth or so
there goes my temporary stay out...

sent leonard off at the airport ytd
so sad.. now i dont have anyone to "zzz" with whenever i come online at night..
which reminds me, i shld start making plans abt my own further studies soon
i don't wanna be trapped with just a diploma and an ITE cert..
(got that ITE cert frm ns for learning vehicle maintenance)
anyone got any suggestions on where i shld go?

on another note, there's suddenly this hype on yuna ito
coz she did an aerosmith cover on their song entitled "I Don't Want To Miss A Thing"
yes yes, i know she is very talented..
but didn't anyone realize i already knew abt her existence since 2006?
i loved her song "losin'"
it was even used as my blog theme song last time, along with "Stay For Love"
well, there u have it.. hail me for my talent poaching skills. =D

okay, i know it's been a while..
but i've been too cropped up with ns life lately.
so i haven't really found the time to go blogging.
coz let's face it, fb is a way better option to get connected since i no longer have the luxury of time to blog.
and i have been thinking for a while, if i have internet access on my sony ericsson phone in camp, this blog wouldn't be so dead.
so anyway, i'm at sgh now, blogging using my nokia x6.
i'll just make a quick update of my recent activities..
I'm currently posted to sembawang camp as a transport supervisor.
But i'm having temp stay out due to the class 3&4 driving course which i have to go through.
Games currently hooked on to: league of legends
Also playing cnc4, but so far it looks like a rushed and pretty cheapo production.
Well, nth much to blog abt for now..
like wad i always say, no pt blogging when there is no inspiration.

I'm blogging using my phone!
Haha!
I'm at hg polyclinic now to grab my free medicine.. Yet again..
The queue is freaking long can?
It's now number 2190 and i'm supposed to wait for 2271?
I think it'll take like one hour till it's my turn..
Looks like i have lots of time to blog i guess..
*Although the healthcare industry has a knack for having cute healthcare professionals based on my personal experience.. Don't tell me to look around for chiobu.. I'm telling you there is NONE to be found here.* =/

One week that i can spend with my nokia phone..
It feels so nice to handle this phone instead of my ns sony ericsson phone, coz i still never bothered to explore that phone.
It's freaking one block! I hate candy bar phones!
I don't even know if that phone has wifi!
Okay, but that's not the main issue
Coz i've been wanting to get nokia x3 ever since it first came out
But the prob is, it's like singtel is unwilling to take up the phone after so long..
So it's impossible to buy it off the shelves in any singtel hello shop..
Urgh.. So wad should i do?
It's like the perfect phone for me.
Music phone, slide, comes in white.. =(

On another note..
I've been catching on with code blue season 2.
I love that show.. And my bro don't get how i don't squirm whenever they take a scapel to cut open the patient.
This proves one thing: i'm really a sadist.
Lolz

The previous ep i watched was about how this nurse's boyf died after 2 yrs of having ALS.. Which means his muscles will degrade until he becomes a veggie and end up unable to breathe on his own.. That's how he died.
Kinda sad, seeing how the nurse really loved him till the very end.
Unconditional love.
That's wad it's called.

But too bad..
Coz reality check:
This kind of things don't really exist in the world we live in.
Relationships tend to get complicated.

"ai? shinjinai."
Literarily: "love? i don't believe in it."
So if you want to sell the story about how there are fairy tale endings in love,
Get someone else to buy it.
Coz i don't. =)

Sure, it'll be nice to have someone to be there for you no matter wad.
But this was wad i came to realise..
Love will make you go all the way to your limits..
Enable you to tap into wad you are really capable of..
Like the catch phrase in the jap drama buzzer beat: "love makes you strong."

But that's the fatal flaw in that conceived idea.
The fact is, love makes you weak.
It makes you more dependent on your soulmate.
"i can't live without you."
Sounds familiar?

So lets bring back wad i've said earlier..
Love enables you to reach your max limits eh?
Time for your wake up call.
Since when did we have any limits in the first place?
It's the restraints of the relationship that created the barriers.. Or limits in this case.
Stay unattached and you will eventually realise that you feel free, thus you can soar further.
Now that's wad i call full potential.

For those who have relationship problems and are reading this..
Think about it.
Sometimes being unattached may be the best thing that can happen to you.
A break from all the relationship problems.
Feel lonely? Fret not. When you are single, there is no one to stop you from having a large social circle of people of the opp sex.
Just say no to commitments.
Now that's living your life, the wyd way. =)


"ai? shinjinai."

it's been god knows how long since i last blogged..
7wks to be precise i think..
so that means its already the end of my bmtc days
bye-bye pulau tekong..
i'll miss you.. *sobx*

i know a lot of ppl refrain frm posting anything on their ns life
coz of the 'instruction' given to us
but if u inspect the laws closely,
it only stated one shld not post any sort of complaints or any form of defamation regarding sg's national service on any form of public media.
well, im only gonna post glimses of gd memories i had..
so, this shld be fine. =D

memorable moments in tekong..
rapidly firing the sar21 until the smell of gunpowder lingers in ur nose even hrs after that..
watching the cool "star wars style" pyrotechnic effect when firing the tracer round at night..
eating field ration in the middle of the jungle with ur face full of camo cream..
all the inside jokes during the tactical movement exercises..

and my fav.. hand grenade throwing.
i shouted: "grenade!"
*ducks down as grenade goes flying*
*a few secs later.. u hear the loud explosion accompanied by the shockwave that trembles the ground u are squatting on*
and i laughed out loud every time i felt that very sensation when the grenade explodes
*gosh im sadist.*
truly a once in a lifetime experience..


but now all that is over..
so now im having my 1wk block leave
and i still havent recovered frm the tekong cough
unit posting will only be out this coming sunday..
i'll be bored till then. =(